When was the last time you messed things up?
My brain was working in overdrive, mid sequence of my recorded yoga session I realised that I had taught the wrong pose. Meaning that I was in the wrong position for the next few poses.
Being taught that you are just to continue as if you had planned it that way.
I made up another pose which left me facing the wrong way and having to transition out of it back to my flow. To make things worse, I needed to remember how I did it so I could teach it on the other side.
With my heart still racing and becoming anxious about time keeping, I managed to finish on time.
Despite the self judgement and need to explain to my examiner, I chose not to advise her of the mess up. I sent the video with no explanation.
What was your reaction to the last thing you messed up? Did you spend the rest of the day judging yourself and replaying the event over and over in your head?
Messing up is part of the human experience. It may not be pleasant but it is natural.
Allow yourself the compassion you would give to someone your love dearly. Be kind. Acknowledge that it’s OK to mess up, it is part of learning.
The lessons you learn often come from ‘mistakes’ or as some people like to call them, learning experiences.
You are the harshest, most critical judge you will ever encounter. Your enemy wouldn’t even judge you as harshly as you judge yourself.
After an anxious few days, I was surprised that my examiner didn’t spot the “error” and gave me good feedback.
Moving forward, it may be more helpful to acknowledge the “error” and let it go. Thus enabling me to continue teaching without all the anxiety and judgement. Making the class more enjoyable for everyone.
As you release your self judgement, you create space to live more freely.
You deserve freedom.