Are You Open To It?

As part of the final evaluation of my Yoga Teacher Training course I had to teach my classmates an hour class via Zoom.

It was absolutely torturous for me. Having tech issues shortly before class, it set me into a state of anxiety and extreme tension for a class I was already nervous to teach. Especially knowing that I would be judged and critiqued at the end by my classmates and by the Lead Trainer herself.

Seconds after completing the class, I burst into tears. I could not hold it in anymore and needed a release.

When being asked what I was so afraid of, I consciously knew that any feedback that I would be given, would come from a place of love and genuinely wanting to help me to be a better teacher.

Where was all this angst coming from?

Inside.

My own judgement.

The charge from that judgement was so strong that some of my classmates, literally on the other side of the world, were able to feel it.

You are your harshest and most critical judge.

What do you judge yourself for?

Despite the astounding positive feedback I received I wasn’t open to receive it.

I missed it.

I missed the good stuff that was said. I missed the love, compliments and genuine encouragement.

Do you realise that by judging yourself, you are blocking the opportunity of receiving?

The people around you are mirrors, they are able to reflect what is inside of you and what you radiate. When you are so distracted by your own judgement, you miss the gems. You miss the good that you bring to the world.

What have you been missing?

Are you ready to release the judgement and be open to receiving?