A Sweet Confession

Confession time: Over the last week, I have eaten far too much chocolate than I care to admit. Being a person who usually avoids refined sugar and gluten due to the negative effects it has on my body and my brain, this may come as a shock to you.

I am not sure about you, but chocolate or sugar clouds my thinking and makes me sleepy. It makes me numb and disconnected. I eat chocolate or sugar because I don’t want to feel.

Running away, far away or just distancing yourself from the discomfort you feel is normal and to be expected as you embark on changes in the New Year.

Change is difficult. It is OK to be a little scared, even if you don’t want to admit it to yourself initially. Awareness is key. It was only after the third slab of chocolate that I became aware of what I was doing.

If I ate chocolate it would cut me off from the discomfort within me. It is scary to be outside of your comfort zone. That is why it is called a ‘comfort zone’ because it’s warm and fuzzy. It may not be the best thing for your growth but there is something that is comforting about being in a familiar space.

Self-sabotaging is normal. If you are truly honest with yourself, it may not be fear of failure that is holding you back but rather fear of success or fear of disappointment.

If you look back on your life, you have already achieved many great things so far, even in small wins that you have made. The evidence is there, the challenges that you have overcome and lived to tell the tail. Hang in there.

Pause.

Be aware of your self-sabotage. 

Don’t judge yourself or beat yourself up for it but rather be kind to yourself.

Take a moment to hold your both hands over your heart, close your eyes and breathe. Take a deep breath in and out.

It’s OK, you have got this. You will get there. As you become more aware of what you are doing and why you are doing it, so too, it will be easier to change.

Keep going. You are doing great so far!